“You can adapt to anything, if you have to.”
That's what I said, moments before he tried to kill me.
I will explain. That morning, we got up for work, and went to the gas station, as was our routine every morning. With my back to the gas station, I stared off into the trees, not really thinking about anything in particular.
He got into the truck and sat there for a minute. He was looking off into space, and I had no interest in whatever annoying thing was on his mind.
He then starts telling me about how he saw someone in a wheelchair, doing things by themselves, including folding and unfolding the wheelchair. This included getting it out of the car, and he had seen the the same situation as they got into the car. I looked around, hoping to spot this person, but he started the truck and quickly pulled away.
I can't remember the exact word for word context of the discussion, but I remember him asking me something to the effect of “how could they do that”. How could they function if they couldn't walk on their own.
And that's when I said it. “You can adapt to anything, if you have to.”
He wanted and expected me to elaborate, and I told him that the body is a funny thing, and we can adapt to just about anything. And you have to, there's not really a choice. You either learn to adapt to your situation, or you suffer. The choice sometimes is, adapt or die.
He was quiet again for a mile or so, before asking/saying “So anyone can deal with anything, right?”
To be honest, I don't know if that was the exact words he mumbled, but that was how I remember it. I didn't have time to answer him, because that was when he...
That was when he tried to kill me.
Ever so often, I think of that final ride, when he was so interested in the survival and quality of life of a person in a wheelchair. Did he make the person up? Was he asking me about this in case he screwed up and injured himself?
I don't know. I never got the chance to ask.
However, tonight I think of that sentence. That thing I said before everything changed. It's the thing I remember the most. “You can adapt to anything, if you have to.”
Adapting is painful, but we all must figure it out, one way or another.